I’ve been putting a considerable amount of effort and time into reading Nietzsche and Kirekegaard, understanding the history of their thought (indeed, the similarities, despite them never reading each other).

My thesis questions the system of our world, the world-historical that structures and orders the world in which we live in.  More specifically refering to our constructed meanings, albeit one’s career centered around one’s “purpose in life”. I seem to having a hard time with the direction of the paper, so I chose four words I wish to use throughout the paper:

1. Responsibility
2. Suffering
3. Guilt
4. Risk

I want these words do be developed under the umbrella of “Failure” for this paper is becoming a serious work that I need to work on myself. Last semester, I was a fuck up… but yet I’m still here, still going. It makes me ask, what keeps me going? Am I forever the product of the system, forever a cog in the machine, or is it something else? This is a direct relationship between Kierkegaard/Nietzsche and the Hegelian world-historical model, because the former philosophers believed that a subject can rise above the historical world, for the system is never set in stone, allowing the subject to create truth themselves. 
I want to use this debate in contemporary society, at the same time giving more credit to the Hegelian system in which Kierkegaard feriously disagreed with. Although I am sympathetic to Kirekgaard’s views, the world-historical has a massive grip on society.  We live through norms, conventions, practices and values in which are bestowed on society. Through reason, the spirit of the absolute will surge through this list, eventually reaching an end - and the highest of all will be practiced. This extreme I do not wish to develop, but it’s highlight does not come unjustified; I’m under the impression that the motions of our day-to-day lives has become systematized. People going about their lives, forgetting the fulfillment of existence.
Within our system we are responsible, but not with the values in which subjectively believe, just the one’s in which we’re told to practice. Responsibility or committment is not the answer within our culture, yes it may get you by, but it does not create fulfillment.
In asking the question, “Can you go drive to Mexico, right now?” the general response would be, ”of course not, I cannot give up such and such.”
we suffer guilt from risking something that is not responsible. We suffer this because of the value systems that are bogging down on our ability to choose.
Choice is an illusion in this society, we think we can choose, but one of the essential questions is, can we just act without thought?
Responsibility, Risk, Guilt, and Suffering are all essential in interpreting my concept of failure, and how important it is to re-establish the self within this continued existence.

The theme of the course was centered around the self, and what the self struggles with every-day is the concept of failure. Again, the system has such a grip on our values in principles when it comes to being successful (the american dream, wealth) that failing has such a deteriment. I want to explore this detriment, and why we feel so shitty when we fail.

I guess one really important concept is passion - to anticipate failure, yet continue to strive is also important in this work. It’s the most paradoxical - one continues to invest all effort, even if their efforts are thwarted. Risk is the ultimate importance in staying true to your values and principles. Nietzsche criticizes anyone who doesn’t take risk, the herd plays it safe.. then they blink and the world is over.
No, Nietzsche is right… to inscribe my own values through the will to power take’s risk… risk that may destroy me, but I do it anyway, or I carry on anyway. After the worst of worsts, I will remain, and what will I do, keep going. It take’s responsibility to recognize that I need to keep going, but it’s risk that looks deeper and maintains the human aspect in such a world of non-meaning. Since it’s human it’s individualistic. I live the life I want to live.

so it seems I must use Kierkegaards religious over ethical as an example to say that risk is more important than responsibility as it allowed me to seek truth and understanding in my own way - not through something enscribed, but subjectively.
I’ll have to reinforce his example of living religiously is considered subjective, as one cannot be objective with the irrational. The logic is as follows:
“Christianity is spirit, spirit is inwardness, inwardness is subjectivity, subjectivity is essentially passion, and in its maximum an infinite, personal, passionate interest in one’s eternal happiness” - Concluding Unscientific Postscript, 23. 

I also must use Nietzsche’s Superman or Will to power. I would have to will these risks, as just accepting life in safety is similar to his version of the herd. He argues that the herd is the everyday man, who just follows without knowing.

J.Sulls.